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I would need ideas on how to get through the next week or two dealing with loneliness at home since my girlfriend is at her parents house to help after her mother's surgery and I tend to go fast into anxiety loops when left alone. Things to consider - Things I already do : sitting on a chair in my home office, like my throne, and try to calm down a bit for 10-15 minutes every day, wearing my slipchain to calm my anxiety, sending open-ended messages to friends like ''Have nice week, thinking of you'', try to talk to my coworkers a bit since I am required to be at the office 5 days a week, playing some video games to be able to play my fem side like Warhammer 40K : Rogue trader or some sports simulation games like Football Manager 2027 or ESports Manager 2026 - I can't dress fem for the week since I need my grielfriend's help to put my breastplate, dresses and makeup, like a lady-in-waiting. So, even if I want it, I can't. - I already did a list of fem styles projects I want to have but it is a long-term project so, they won't happen soon. All my christmas gift ideas and linked to that but it isn't something I can ask my parents since I am not out as genderfluid to them and I don't plan to. My mother wants us to unwrap something on Christmas so, just asking for money isn't working as an idea. - My gender presentation and fem dressing exploration at home should be a source of joy but the perfectionist side is making it another anxiety loop/project to fix because I don't look ''right'' like the other crossdresser/genderfluid fem presenting I see online. - Sports this week that interest me enough to tune in are few and far in-between. The counter-strike S-Tier tournament is in Beijing so, during the night here in Quebec City, my soccer team, Leverkusen, is playing on Thursday in the UEFA Europa League but during my work hours at 15h. Furthermore, the usualy stock research in done during the day on lunch itme. - My fear is that the lack of social interactions, because I don't have a lot of replies to my messages because my friends and my girlfriend are busy, and my anxiety will kick in in a perfectionism loop to resolve something and it won't accept that those evenings are there, right now, just to survive and it is ok. - The weather forecast for the next 3 days is rain here in Quebec City